Wednesday, 3 November 2010

I don't want to be that girl

I don't want to be that girl that everyone thinks is a freak, just because i'm different.
I kinda have feelings too, and they build up so much, beyond control, but nobody cares.
They all just pretend to to get the latest gossip it's pathetic.
Then there's THEM, the girls who keep me sane, they wipe my tears, ignore the sneers and wash my wonders away, these girls are amazing, these girls are my best friends.

Goodbyes

Goodbyes are something we all have to do,
My parents always told me practice makes perfect,
If i did things over and over, they would get easier,
Well i have had to say goodbye, more times than i would like,
It doesn't get easier. Ever.

You know that person matters, when you say goodbye to someebody, and you don't want them to go, you just want to cling onto them.#
You can remember their smell, those funny little words they would say, their smile, their laugh, everything, and all you have is the memories.
They say peoples souls live on, well i believe people can never die, not truly, so long as they are remembered.
They wouldn't want you to spend all your time worrying about them, just that thought every once in a while, or that smile as you remember how they used to wear those hideous bright green boots, and no matter what anyone said, loved them with all their heart.
When you love someone, it's almost like your heart living outside your body, when they feel pain, you ache, when they want to cry and curl in the corner, you want to make it all okay and take the pain for them.
Sometimes loving someone is about letting go, letting go of the past and moving on, not forgetting, never forgetting, reminisce on the joys and wonders they brought, but don't give the painful memories, a glance or second thought.